Secret Notes

My love,

I officially started 'Project Elysian' on 12th August 2026 and yes each and everything on this website is designed by me. Every lock mechanism and the elements were thought out by me only and yes each of these paragraphs that you've stumbled upon during this journey was handwritten. Even the backgrounds were finalised by me and much more but I don't wanna brag about all of that and ruin your experience.

This is the beginning of Secret Notes, okay so don't heighten up your expectations, because this might be the dullest part of this whole project, but this one actually captures my raw emotions and these are journals I used to make when I was transitioning to fall for you, more and more each day.

Now let's start with the situation I'm in the life right now. I've given another chance to love. This is probably the last one I'll ever give it, I'm genuinely all in, in this one. I really like this girl, her name is Manya. From the start of the college, I noticed that she used to be really mysterious type in the metro (treating the rest of us like peasants, as if she's the main character) but whenever I talked with her she always showed interest rather than being forced in it. Idk why but I always ended up over sharing to her, like telling her about the things that I've done which I'm proud of. I knew that I overshared to her but I never felt judged and I'd be really happy deep down when I could see on her face that she's impressed. From the beginning I could always notice her but never really thought that I'd actually end up liking her someday. Our fresher's gave a new hope to my life, I had group dance with my friends and that's when I actually started feeling attracted towards this girl. It was just a normal attraction for quite a while then on the eve of my birthday we actually talked and I got know her even better. By the way I was assigned her partner in one of the dance which is my favourite part as I enjoyed it alot. On the eve of my birthday after talking to her I realised that she is a kind soul but is broken so idk why but I just wanted to fix her. On the night of freshers, I got a chance to sit right next to her, in her car. At that time I remember, she was looking so beautiful that I couldn't even take my eyes of her and took every glance as which I possibly could. At that time she was just looking so cute while sleeping, honestly I wished that moment to go on and on and on so I could just stare at her forever. At that moment I finally accepted that I've feelings for this girl and wanted her to be mine so bad. If I had 100 lives, I would've wanted to relive that moment in each one of them. 25 September, 2025

Extension: Now let me tell from where exactly I started to find her attractive. So basically we started practicing for our freshers beyond our college too. So once we went to Chehak's house and there she removed her glasses, I was like gosh this girl is so beautiful. And with the elegance she showed her dance, I was so impressed that I started to secretly practice dance too when I was in my home just to come to her notice. That day I asked about a guy that she frequently mentioned but they were not dating which gave me reassurance that yeah this is worth my time and efforts. Also I do want to mention that there was another day while practicing that I did a cartwheel in front of everyone and she was the one who was the most impressed and hooted the loudest. Then after everybody left and only 4 of us were in the room, I flexed other of my skills and did some one arm pushups and other thingy and i could see it all over her face that she was so impressed and all of that non chalant aura she maintained was basically gone. Then further we had other cute moments like me defeating her with my pinky finger while she both of her hands during arm wrestling. After all of this concluded Devansh pulled me at a corner and said thoda kam karle Anshika ke sath and I was genuinely so confused because all the efforts I was making was to impress Manya only. At that time I revealed to him that I have a crush on Manya and he was so proud of me that he gave a dab.

We started talking frequently after that day, whether it would be video call or text, We got to know each other even better. I was so impressed after hearing her ideologies and how good of a person she actually was. After a point of time my friend Devansh ended up telling her that I've feelings for her and things didn't go as planned. We went on a break and the first day we met after that, due to misunderstanding we started ignoring each other. I couldn't take that anymore and was feeling really sad. At the end of the second day, I built up courage and faced her and we had a proper chat about what really happened. I finally confessed that day to her about my feelings. To my surprise she already knew about it since day one as Anshika told her everything. Nothing was going as I wanted it to be, my confession was very initial at that point and I actually wanted to give it time so that feelings could develop mutually. The only good part was the way I actually imagined to confess her remained the same: We're in the basketball court and she's sitting and I'm confessing to her while standing and maintaining eye contact with her. 14 October, 2025

Extension: I remember how light and good I was feeling after finally revealing to her that I have feelings for her. I remember after college I did not go home right afterwards with her as I usually used too because I knew both of us needed time after such an important convo, but I do remember how happily I was bragging about how much I like her and what happened today in front of devansh, at that time I was at top of the world. I was genuinely in love with Manya.

After that we still continuously talked everyday, then Diwali Hat event happened and at that time we had a chance to spend time together. At that time I convinced her to feel my abs through the cloth once, And the moment she felt them, she was so impressed, I could literally see it all over her face. At that time I ended up seeing a new side of hers, when she get's nervous, she get's all worked up. I enjoyed that moment alot. Then we had a chance to go on a sabji date which was really wholesome. I had no idea where to get anything from, while she basically knew everything. It was really fun and on that day only I could quite literally form an image of us having a family together in my mind constantly while we were in the bazar. Everything was so good at that time, it was like that we were couples and it was genuinely so cute sa. We had a brief moment when we were chatting on someone's scooty and it was so peaceful to have a genuine chat with her without the college mates judging then the owner of the scooty came and he said "agar aap dono ka hogya ho toh mai apni scooty le jau" which was hilarious, In the end Vaibhav bhaiya came to drop us and in the car she told me that she likes talking to me which made me so happy. We had a plan to go together on cab to college the following day, and at night she told me not to put the luggage between us :)15 October 2025

On the day of Diwali Hat, In the morning we went to college in the cab, At first I helped her to get luggage from her house and after that we sat together in the cab. Initially we were just talking after that I initiated touch on her hand by pointing at her nails, after that I continued with hand traces and by the end of it, with hesitation I initiated hand hold and she went with it. This gave me a sense of comfort as I believed that it was mutual. Our event went well even though we suffered immense loss but the memories were all worth it. At the end we went through shuttle. Initially she slept and I got a chance to stare at her while sleeping, she looks so beautiful dude I'm telling you. After that we were having a conversation and it ended up her feeling my abs through my kurta again and she was really impressed. Then we held hands and I asked her what she feels about all this and she said that she's very mixed about her feelings, ofcourse I was sad but I knew everything is really initial. We still held hands and she told that her past is really fucked up and I could notice her head turning away from me and her eyes getting watery. I felt really bad for her and tried to comfort her. After a while things got fine and she even put our hands on her lap which was cute sa. Then she missed her stop and after a little bit of ruckus, My mother dropped her home. She was so shy shy type of in front of my mother and fir I helped by dropping her stuff at her home, Then she showed me new lehengas that she bought and aise her showing me her stuff being all excited makes me so happy. 16 October, 2025

After the event, Diwali vacation was given to us and during this time she also came near my house. We met in town park, originally everything started with an argument but things got better and we ended up playing badminton together (she's such a noob). Her cousin sister Sakshi also came by the way. By the end of everything we went to Pristine Mall to eat something, we went there by scooty and I drove and it was such a funny experience. She was so scared from the way I drove her scooty and I could feel her grip getting tighter, in one instance when her grip got stronger, I looked back and shared a cute exchange of smile with her. When we were eating we sat together in front of the mall and I stared at her most of the time, she thought that I was judging the way she was eating the food but for me I was just admiring how beautiful she really looked. We also shared a cute little eye contact while sitting together aise, before she got nervous and broke it lol. By the way at that time, it was the first time we shared an eye contact aise warna she always used to get nervous very soon. 21 October, 2025

During these vacations, one time we were discussing how great the shuttle experience was and wanted to experience everything again. So we decided that after the vacation we will once again go in the shuttle together. We discussed that we would hold hands and our chats started to escalate and we reached to a point were we had a deal type thing that I'll get to feel her waist while she would get to trace my abs, we also decided to exchange neck pecks. Then our vacation got extended and out of courage I asked if I come over at her home and she said yes. We further discussed that we may do these things and got to a point that we might also kiss each other for once.

On 28th October, 2025 the day we were meant to meet at her home. The day started with her going for Chath Pooja. Honestly I was pretty much hopeless from the beginning that we might not be able to meet as she must be really exhausted by the time she'd be back. Still, I followed with my routine and went to the gym, as I wanted to look good. Around 11 something she told me that she's going to take a shower and I can come afterwards. Then after a while she messaged me that I could come by. I told my Mom that I'm going to my friend's place. When I reached the mall near her house and was walking towards her place, I was genuinely so nervous and I could feel my heart beating faster and faster with every step I took towards her home. When I finally saw her in the balcony, I got a sense of relief but I was still so nervous. We then sat in her room and I was so quiet and nervous, it was all over my face but then she did things to comfort me. She showed me around her room, also she showed me stuff, her perfume collection and some gifts that she got. After that I asked her if I could remove her specs, At first she was hesitant, but when I requested, she gave her specs to me. She looked so pretty dude, I just kept staring at her. We shared a brief moment, where we were just having a cute eye contact and me feeling her face. After some time and bits and bits of hesitance, Manya applied lip balm on her lips and asked me if i wanted it too and then I nooded and said yes, i though she'll give me the container of it but actually she started applying it on my lips and felt to be cared for which gave me so much relief. After some time filled with hesitation and nervousness she finally guided her way to sit on my laps and we had a moment of deep eye contact saying a thousand things. After that I hesitatantly felt her waist through the cloth and finally I put my hand on her bare waist and I could see her reaction excelate with every touch of mine. After that I asked if I could kiss her on the neck and I finally went for it, honestly i messed up on the first neck kiss because all the Vaseline that she applied on my lips was basically on her neck now, so I knew I had to fix this so I started giving her deeper kisses which she liked and we got to a point that there was almost no distance between us. I could feel every inch of her body in my arms then We had eye contact and I after asking for it, I finally kissed her on the lips which was seriously the best thing ever, it ended up being so good that literally for the next 10 minutes we constantly did makeout only in that same position, after that i changed the position in such a way that she'll be neeche mere how do I explain, she'll understand when she'll read this. And I'll be above her basically. But i executed it so horribly istg I had her head hit the bed frame, we had a small moment of laughter but than we ignored it started making out and dry humping in that position only. After that we switched positions again and now she was the one on top of me and after a bit of hesitation i glided my thumb over her pussy but thorough the cloth only and her reaction told that she loved that after that i hesitantly started rubbing her down there but after a few moment i stopped and she said to do it again, this time I went all out because now I had the consent that she loved it and this time she even moaned my name. After that we again sat on the bed while holding each other and I pressed her boob and nipple too while kissing and she loved it so much I can't tell. It all ended with me giving her waist kisses and then it was time for me to go home unfortunately. We had a brief moment of hug which ended with kisses too. Even though we went way beyond what we originally discussed on chat, but it was all so worth it

Though I never really got the time to continue this journal after this moment. Do let me know if you like these straight out of heart and kinda smut including, no filter me side of mine. Thank you for being a part of this journey together, it has been 1 year to us now, more to come!

With this, I'd also like to fully reset everything and start as a new beginning for both of us, together.

I know we went through many hardships this year, and grudges have been formed, but I don't want anything to continue after this point. We'll work on the whole intimacy concern together and always clearly communicate to eachother so that there are no misunderstandings, and yes I'll add you back on my socials, because I don't want that issue to continue either.

Also for your reassurance, don't worry. None of your photos and videos were added to this project with the help of AI. I made sure everything is added manually, special thanks to Vatsal.